Around in circles #FunctionalNeurologicalDisorder #PTSD #DissociationDisorders #DissociativeIdentityDisorder
I am angry because mental healthcare people keep telling me they can't help me because "they can't provide the care I deserve." The idea seems fine on the surface... They WANT me to get especially good care. They just can't provide it themselves. In a sense that's perfectly fair... especially from their perspective.
The trouble is that the cumulative result, from my perspective, is that I actually get no care, or I only have access to whoever is inclined to think unusually much of themselves... even though my experiance is that these people are otherwise not unlike the ones who thought they couldn't help me.
I want to be told when I have exhausted my treatment options. I suspect I mostly already have. People don't want me to give up... Or they just don't want to take responsibility for the lack of options.
In spite of that, my reality is that if I am going to try to live how I am, over any kind of long term, I definitely need to cut spending ASAP. That means I need to stop spending as soon as that path is nolonger hopeful. I suspect I have been beyond that point for some time already, although all sorts of well meaning people regularly assure me I haven't seen nothing yet ...
Most of these people don't even provide phone numbers... At best they have the name of someone who may or may not be an actual provider, or they rattle off a few bits of potentially googleable jargon.